Oh God, I have disappointed you again....Oh, no. cried Tanye. I know, I promised you, it will never happen again, but I can't just help myself anymore, Lord. I know it's a sin but I just keep falling into it, again and again. Oh, how i wish I can experience total freedom from this sexual act that has become an hindrance to my walk with God, it's a torment to my soul, Lord. sobbed Tanye.
Tanye had been involved in masturbation as a teenager, he thought since he was too young to be in a relationship with any girl, the only way he could satisfy his sexual urge was through masturbation and most of his friends were doing it too. Years has passed and what seemed to be a means of pleasure as become a great "monster" he can't conquer.
Three years ago, Tanye gave his life to Christ during a youth convention in his church and he has been committed to his relationship with God and he has also been active in church but this "monster' seems to be an hindrance to his christian testimony. He seems to be experiencing temporary victory over this sinful habit. Now, should he give up the fight and allow himself to be devoured by this sin or should he keep fighting till he experiences total freedom. He took a stock of his life, he is baptized with the Holy Ghost with the evidence of speaking in tongues, he studies the Word of God and also gives himself to prayers. In addition to these, he ensures he never misses church services and he's also a member of the worship team. He had prayed and fasted for total deliverance from masturbation but his freedom had always been temporal,after a few temptations he falls right back on the floor.
There must definitely be a way out of this.Tanye said to himself. There must be something,i am not doing or should be doing,he said. Suddenly it dawned on him, he has never confided in anyone about his struggle. But to who? he asked. Everyone sees me as a spiritual brother, alot of my peers and even the teenagers look up to me, wont they think I have been an hypocrite all this while....Oh God, please help me, teach me what to do Lord. cried Tanye. Then James 5:16, flashed across his heart, he hurriedly looked through his Bible and read...."Confess your trespasses to one another and pray for one another that you may be healed". He pondered on this bible verse for a while. But who do I confess this sinful act to, who can I trust, Lord? he asked again. After awhile, he decided to speak to his Pastor about it, he wore his shirt and hurriedly went to church hoping to see his Pastor, since it wasn't a church service day.
Good day Sir, greeted Tanye.
Hello Tanye, how are you today, you came in just in time, I was about leaving for a meeting. his pastor said.
His Pastor took a close look at Tanye and he noticed he had been crying. Have you been crying? What is wrong, Tanye? Tanye was a bit hesitant and he finally found his voice. He told his Pastor about his hidden sin and was expecting his Pastor to rebuke him and tell him how disappointed he was. But he was taken aback when his Pastor smiled, after he had finished pouring out his heart.
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To be continued next week
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